God's plan to greatly reduce terrorism

After you have read all my essays anyone would be greatly impressed by the sacrifices that I have made for God. Many of you might put me on a pedestal. It's imperative that I will tell you my entire story, and thus deflate this larger than life image!

In 1978 I physically died and was blessed by God with a full-blown Judgment-Day Experience. In that experience not only did the Lord reveal to me all my sins, but He also taught me many priceless things, and then I given another chance to come back and live again. In that blessed experience I had the good fortune of being baptized by fire experiencing the same grace as the disciples experienced on the day of Pentecost. During that entire time I was in the presence of the Father and tutored spirituality by Him!

Rare blessings indeed!

On account of that blessed experience, plus one year later I was living in a particular spiritual community where I went through another intense spiritual purification . . . because of both blessed experiences I had attained a rare level of sanctity (purity of heart). The psalmist declared, The whole earth is full of His glory . . . and that is precisely what I started seeing with my mortal eyes . . .and all the time! Also, I started seeing that the light in men was the light of God . . . I started literally seeing God in my neighbor.

Then, came my mega-blunder!

I had made a terrible mistake by getting involved with the wrong lady (I honestly believed that the Lord wanted me to be with this lady . . . but back then I didn't pray much, because in my JDE the Lord didn't educate me about it. Rather, He educated me on the priceless value of right action. . . good works)

In the beginning I only had sex with this lady because she needed it, because at my spiritual state I wasn't lusty. But sadly, on account of me being unequally yoked with her, and beginning to have frequent and regular sex, plus some arguments. . . . I gradually became carnal again). That relationship with that woman became the major factor in my BACKSLIDING.

Regretfully, I backslid for a number of years, then got right with God again, then backslid still again! This second time I backslid (1986 -1987) I hated my second wife so badly that I not only wanted to kill her, but yearned to slowly slice her up into countless little pieces!

I not only desired to do this . . . but yearned to do so. I had descended to imbibing the deeepest of hates! Just as there are different heights of love one can ascend to - there are also different levels of hate one can devolve to. I descended so far into darkness that I almost attained hell prior to bodily death! (Fortunately, through the worse of this ordeal I always had some remnant of my former relationship with God. This holy-link with God gave me the anchor and the strength to prevent me from returning evil for evil: from carrying out the violence that my now vengeful heart was conceiving)

I became so far gone that from my viewpoint it looked like it would be glory to do these vicious and terrible acts of revenge to my wife. That is how far I had descended into the mire of sin!

I'm sure that every now and then you read in the newspapers a story of how someone commits an especially grizzly murder against their wife and you think, "How can anyone even think of such a thing?"

I'm a person who knows from personal experience! I know what goes through the mind of a man who carves up his wife into little pieces!!

Anyways, back at that time I was working a certain job and a lady from work invited me to her church. I felt the hand of the Lord reach through her to me. I readily accepted her kind invitation. Next, she loudly exclaimed, Now I know the reason that the Lord led me to take this job! (I praise God for His mercy in pursuing me!!!)

This woman's church was spirit filled to the brim! It possessed an exceptionally powerfully anointed praise and worship service. On a 1 to 10 scale I'd rate it a 10! I recall, as I began faithfully attending the church services, the spiritual strength that I received there gave me the power within myself to withstand the fiery darts emanating from my wife, so I would be able to overlook her abuse, and not continue hating her for it.

The people I met at the church were slapping me on the back and encouraging me to keep coming to the services (their services were 3 x week)

(Actually in hindsight, I came to know that it was the Lord who was working through those dear ones. He was inspiring them to motivate me to keep going there 3 times/ week. This was His heavenly prescription that was required of me to break the newly formed chains of hate that had not yet strongly embedded themselves within my temple. Sadly, at the time I didn't understand this, so instead I would go to church only once or twice / week. The anointing of once or twice / week wasn't strong enough to break the most powerful cords of hate that had just recently embedded themselves within me)

(I've discovered that it takes some time for repressed hate to gain a strong foothold in one's temple. If one deals with it early before it hardens, it can be purified (eliminated) fairly easily. If one tarries in dealing with it for too long the darkness within gains a strong foothold).

Similar to a woman who conceives a child, because of those prior deep hating spores I had earlier conceived and did not get purified of, in time an evil alien thing began growing within me. As this evil was germinating within, the LIGHT inside me was proportionately shrinking. As a consequence I began to rapidly slide deeper and deeper into darkness. . . without me doing any further hating.

Just as some holy people evolve from glory to glory towards heaven, I was now rapidly devolving in the very opposite direction . . . towards hell! Within just a few months I had degenerated into a person who was very much like Darth Vader from the famous Star Wars movie, "The Empire Strikes Back."(For those of you unfamiliar with the movie, Darth Vader represented the prince of darkness). Wherever I went I now had a black shadow or black cloud that followed me! Also, as I said it appears that this deep hate of mine acted as a conduit for demonic spirits. I was once almost as pure as an angel, and now I became thoroughly polluted within. I became inhabited not by a demon, but by a "legion of demons!" I became similar to that demon possessed fellow in the Bible whom Jesus encountered in the graveyards who was found cutting himself with stones!

Actually, I was well on my way to attaining hell, and attaining hell prior to bodily death . . . and I knew it! But there seemed to be nothing that I could do to stop this negative process. None of the people at Church understood me. I even visited the Indian Saints whom I had spent time with in years past, and they didn't understand me either. It was evident to me that I was so far gone I was out of the realm of conventional understanding. I became a hopeless case . . . in fact no mortal I met understood me. But thankfully, the Lord understood where I was at!

I've discovered that the Lord loves a repentant soul so much that He will custom carve a way back just for him! That is exactly what He did for me!

GOD IS THAT MERCIFUL TO THE REPENTANT SOUL!!

It may sound hard for you to believe, but the Lord wants me to reveal this: Next to Adam (from the garden) few men in history have experienced the terrible fall from such a high level of purity to a grotesque place of depravity that I have experienced, and returned from the dark-place which I have come out of. If not for applying the spiritual practices that I will be speaking of, I never would have made it back to the land of the sane (The spiritual practices to which I will be speaking of all involve suffering and humiliation).

During that time I was in and out of mental institutions for about 1 ½ years. As the Word states, God's mercy is greater than our sins . . . and I experienced the truth of that scripture passage. As my spiritual state had been worsening, the Lord's way to save my soul from my worsening condition changed. Now, instead of directing me to go to church 3 times / week the Lord began asking of me far more difficult things . . . some very unusual things / humiliating things . . . many in public! I was doubting that I was in fact hearing from God, but at that same time my younger brother handed me a book titled,

The Little Flowers of St. Francis" by Raphael Brown (Actually, my brother was being used as an instrument of the Lord).

In that book I read of the lives of St. Francis of Assisi and his companions (the early Franciscans Christians . . . 13th century saints). They were among the greatest Christians who ever lived! Those Franciscan-Christians attained the radiance of the original Apostles! Some of those holy man did similar types of things as the Lord was asking of me . . . so now I knew for sure that it was God who had been speaking to me, not the enemy!

When I started doing enough of these types of things, I started coming out of my sins . . . where the most powerful praise and worship hadn't the power anymore to make me free of those now deeply imbedded cords of hate (It's akin to a situation when the drain in your sink at home is clogged with heavier than normal waste, and the normal cleanser isn't strong enough to unclog it anymore. But only when you use industrial strength cleanser does it unclog! Doing penance is akin to using industrial strength cleanser on the stain of mortal sin within. . . as is the finest antidote / solvent!)

*Note: The difference between me and someone like Nicky Cruz is that I knew the Lord. . . I was a backslider. . . and a backslider from a very exalted state. Mr Cruz did his big sinning before he knew the Lord. Through my personal experience I've discovered that evil gets deeper entrenched in a backslider as compared to someone who never knew the Lord.

When the Bible states, Though your sins be as red as scarlet, I will make them white as snow . . . in practice most of our deeper sins (mortal sins) don't become white as snow, but rather pinkish! (If they became white, you would have the purity of a young child). The reason our deeps sins don't become white is because most people do not do penance for their sins! (Performing worthy penance is the path to become pure again!). Being "partakers in the sufferings of Christ" or doing worthy penance is what has the power to make the sins white again! And white faster than any other means!! It even worked for someone as red as I was!

Just as industrial strength cleanser has a greater power to unclog heavier debris in our drain only fasting or suffering / humiliation for the faith has the power to make the stain of deeper sins white as snow!

(To digress one minute I want to state the fact that those who teach that in the eyes of God that all sin is the same is false doctrine for sure. You are hearing this from the lips of an authority on this subject. When the Apostle Paul called himself chief among sinners he wasn't being humble, he was telling the truth about himself! He was chief among sinners . . . he murdered Christians! Not all sin has the same weight before the Judge of our souls)

Now, by speaking of the early Franciscans and performing penance I'm not trying to make anyone a Catholic here, as I'm not one, nor do I have any desire to become one. I'm not into religion, I'm into anything that will help me get closer to God (becoming pure and developing virtues). I've discovered that some of the practices that the early Franciscan did were special holy things, and sadly these things are not preached over any pulpit (that I know of) , nor even understood. The Lord desires to change all that!

Some of you have heard of St. Francis and the early friars, and you may believe that their secret to sanctity was their asceticism. That is but part of it. Most of them were not ascetics. I've discovered that another extremely powerful part of what they did was that they were masters at publicly-humiliating themselves.

When someone lives a humble life for many years it has the power to restore purity, innocence, humility to that soul. The good that takes many years of humility to accomplish for our soul, can be accomplished through the use of public- humiliations in but a few months. Why? Because humiliation is much lower than humility. Thus, the use of public-humiliation is a fast-track to becoming humble, pure, and innocent!

Doesn't the Word admonish us to be "partakers in the sufferings of Christ?". . . stating that Those who suffer with Him will be glorified with Him? Humiliation was an important aspect of His passions.

(To learn the ways that the early Franciscans publicly humiliated themselves, and how this humiliation was instrumental in making them the men of holiness that they became, you will have to read that book that I mentioned. The Eternal One has taught me many other ways to experience public humiliations that are not listed in that book . . . ways that will not get you in trouble with the authorities!)

When we read of Paul, we read of a man who suffered a whole lot for the gospels. He was beaten, stoned, whipped, hated, persecuted, etc. In those ways he shared in the sufferings of Christ.

The other type of suffering that happened to Jesus on the Cross was humiliation. He even became as a leper for our sake! Thus, humiliations are the other side of the gospel coin of the sufferings of Christ.

I certainly don't have the purity of Mother Teresa, but I'm certainly not nearly a Darth Vader anymore either. What has the power to uplift a Darth Vader like myself, can make a nominally polluted believer, probably like yourself, into a pure vessel faster than any other means . . . much faster than even prayer and fasting!

After I was delivered out of my living hell (about the year 1989), for a number of years I stopped doing heavy penance. Instead, I performed easier services for God. Then about the year 1997 the Lord began telling me to do dangerous things for His sake. In a worried fashion I was praying over this matter and the Lord spoke to me; clear as words, Here is exactly what He told me,

"I expect more out of you - because I chose you, you didn't choose Me!"

I stopped praying and pondered the message that had just come to me from Heaven. I realized that God was being perfectly fair with me.

After I fully accepted the fact that I was going to have to pay this higher price for my faith, without further complaining I began walking this harder road that was being asked of me. As I did so and suffered, my spiritual life eventually became like a fairytale existence! The doors of heaven opened wide for me! I walked into the life of miracles!! Then I came to realize that I had been introduced to "True Christianity!" True Christianity is a lost art!! Just as in the case of an iceberg whereas most of it is hidden beneath the surface of the water. If the only spirituality that you have experienced is only the "Church Christianity," you believe that is all that there is. But my experience is that the real richness of the faith is hidden, and the Lord only reveals this hidden portion (mysteries) to those who have proven themselves through sacrifice and / or suffering for the faith.

*May this kernel of wisdom be a blessing for all zealous souls:

"I only walked the hard road because I was ordered by God to do so. If I would have volunteered to do this without being ordered, it would have been far more meritorious in the eyes of our Heavenly Father!"

Now, instead of me continuing on this unconventional path of purification, coupled with more conventional street ministry which I was doing, the Lord insisted I change direction by becoming a motivational spiritual writer and try to bring this sacred spiritual project before the entire church now, since we are living in the last days, and there is not much time left. The Lord desires to resurrect this lost wisdom in these end-times . . . so those Believers who desire to go all the way with Jesus will have the clearest roadmap we can give them!

Another important matter I am going to divulge is that since my hate was so intense at that time (1986-1987), that the repressed hate that was not purified out of me, after a few years, something most odd started to happen to me. At the times the Lord sanctifies me I began to know it, because I started making a "grunting-like sound." Thus, by the volume and depth of this "sound," I've developed unmatched wisdom on the sanctification process (I've discovered that all the darkness in our temple is glued together by repressed anger).

Now I am going to make a bold statement that will make me look vain; but I am merely speaking the truth. Because of this unusual gift there is probably no person in the world who has the depth of understanding on this subject matter (the sanctification process) as I have . . . that is perhaps the main reason that the Lord has chosen me. Also, I am a disciple and I walk the hard road for the faith - that are my prerequisites.

There are some people who are so deeeep in sin that they give up on God. If one gives up fighting the good fight even God Himself can't save them! God's heart really goes out to these perishing ones. But if that same person was to persevere, even though it may appear hopeless, . . . it may take years, but eventually that soul will come out of his sins ( win). How do I know this? Because that is this sinner's personal testimony! If, as the Bible says, God's mercy is greater than even my sins > His mercies are certainly greater than your sins! Right? My living testimony of coming out of near-hell is proof in the saving power of our Heavenly Father, and the very great restoring power reserved for those who do penance for their sins ("Where I am weak He is strong"). Plus, the fact that the Lord is working closely with someone as previously vile as myself is proof to all that He does indeed forgive even great sins if we do penance for them.

Sincerely, Daniel Rosenblit,

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